oneinamillion

2009-07-14T06:26:00.000-07:00

I'M THE HAPPIEST KID ALIVE TODAY!! thats ironic since michael jackson is dead and i just bought two of his records.DAMN SEXY sia his voice, his look, his hair, his footwork and the way he goes 'HEE HEE' ahahaha !!! i dont even care i spent my hard earned savings for a guitar....now im gna go practice my moonwalk

and he would probably be here today if not for the stinking media attention he got.they killed him!! its HOMOCIDE i tell ya

F-U-C-K THE PRESS
MICHAEL YOU'RE THE BEST!!

2009-07-02T22:06:00.000-07:00

sore throat.cant believe i get to stay at home for two days just because of a sore throat.and all of this started out with not bringing my pe attire.

2009-06-26T06:50:00.000-07:00

i have a headache that started since afternoon and it hasnt gone away even after taking panadol. i think im becoming too dependent on painkillers.the pain is making me think more and the thinking is hurting my brain more.

Michael Jackson's death is seriously affecting me and i dont know why.im not exactly a fan of his.but looking at some of his music videos just now, they're really good actually.its more of the sudden death that shocked me. i never thoght of someone like MJ to just die just like that.gosh!! he was such an icon. it's so sudden i still cant believe it. ARGH!!im gonna miss him.

mad world

2009-06-19T06:39:00.000-07:00

im confused like i dont even know what im feeling now, like i need to press the reset button in my life start all over again, like i need to scream at the top of my longs " fuck this _ !!!!" i dont even know what "_" is.

at this point in my life i dont know what i want and i dont want to have to think about it. this holiday has been bad for me.i feel like i lost sight of what i've beenn trying to do all this while. i dont feel like going back to school. its tiring. i dont want to have to deal with all that crap again.

2009-06-15T05:12:00.000-07:00

watching 'FRIENDS' make me laugh and cry.i cried watching this scene again and again.one of my favourite pieces of television

'in all my life i'd never thought i could be so lucky as to have fallen in love with one of my best...there's a reason why girls dont do this'

:)

2009-06-10T04:25:00.000-07:00

went to see hannah montana the movie. it was :D

adam lambert:"He's the one guy I found attractive in the whole group on the show: nice, nonchalant, pretty and totally my type -- except that he has a wife," Lambert said. "I mean he's open-minded and liberal, but he's definitely 100 percent straight."

awww thats too bad would have been nice to see the two of them together. hehe. he was talking about kris btw

2009-06-08T02:53:00.000-07:00

wanna know what i did the whole day? doesnt matter im gonna say it anw. so i woke up at 9. had breakfast. did a maths paper. cooked spaghetti for lunch all by myself.im so proud of me. bathed. then i lied on my bed and stared at the ceiling for an hour occasionally typing smses to raq and esther. at 3 i went to white sands with my sister. forgot to bring along my library card and we couldnt borrow any books so my sis was like 'quickly hide them' and stuffed the books behind the shelves.HAHA and now im at my house typing this post.

and now im going to stop typing.

hehe trust me it tastes much better than it looks

2009-06-03T06:37:00.000-07:00

5 hours of 'Bed Time Stories', 'No Reservation' and 'Bride Wars' twice. then i read 'shopaholic ties the knot'. makes you wanna get married doesnt it?haha no. im kidding... am i. currently watching 'Get Smart' now. who knew it was an action movie. i tot it was a spoof action movie like the ' scary movie' or 'meet the spartans' but it is funny tho. omg when steve carell and dwayne johnson kissed it was like Ooohlala! haha reminds me of adam lambert *raise eyebrows*

fuck you fuck you like the sucker of a shit that you are!! you have no idea how much i fucking hate you!!im fucking disgusted FUCKING disgusted!

2009-05-30T02:27:00.000-07:00

i was clearing my phone memory yesterday and i came across those messages. yes i still keep them cuz they used to make me feel better and i couldnt erase them when i tried. guess its gonna take some time.

im glad to know you care

2009-05-29T06:56:00.000-07:00

last day of school was memorable just the way i wanted it to be. besides the flag raising practice other things made my day. it has been so long since i last saw you and now with the holidays coming...

i wanted you to hold me a bit longer, a tiny bit would've been fine. anw thx for making my day. today was exactly what i wanted

2009-05-28T06:13:00.000-07:00

today, school was empty and tmr's the last day of school but no one seems to notice. either no one cares or they're too stressed out about the holiday homework. anyhow, i wanna make tmr a memorable day.

BRAVO'09 went bonkers yesterday. all i can say is i love you, you bunch of looney goof-balls

if you can see it past the bitterness and the solitude of your life, you'll see. cuz im tired of seeing you this way.

2009-05-26T06:09:00.000-07:00

i cant wait for sch hols quickly come and just be over with all the homework and projects done. just thinking about the workload gives me headache. and i was thinking of slacking during the holidays..fuckkk

i dont think about it now, not anymore and just like that it was over

2009-05-25T06:31:00.000-07:00

ok i feel wrong cuz i just watched two documentaries on THAT thing you know?? the first one was on how it evolved and the other on how to do it in outerspace if we colonised the universe.can u believe they have a space suit specially desinged for tat?? what are they thinking man? 'hey we got nothing better to do lets design a garmet just in case we get horny in zero-gravity zone' like hello? shldnt you be concentrating on slowing down global warming or smth?? ok im crapping now shut up jasmine

2009-05-21T05:58:00.000-07:00

OMG i cant believe this crap!!!!how in the world can this happen.how can ADAM LAMBERT NOT WIN???? someone tell me why??? he's like the most memorable contestant on AI given the smoky eyes and the vocal range and all. how can he not win? oh GOD those people need hearing aid. its so frigging obvious his voice is better than kris. no offence i like kris too but just not enough to want him to win. doesnt matter i love adam. he's my idol. let's celebrate ADAM day!!

ALL HAIL THE ROCK GOD

today was kinda fun.cheering for my friends were fun.and later we went to far east plaza.haha humaira was damn bored but just being able to spend time with my pltmates were fun and worth the long bus ride

2009-05-19T05:29:00.000-07:00

im so proud of myself.i didnt really expected this much.i dun care what my mum says i did my best, got my best and managed to balance other things with my academics. and i know i can do so much better. be so much more. just watch me i dont have to focus only on one thing just cause it might be the main goal YOU have for me.what if i told you i have other goals in life? what if i wanted to break away and do something crazy?

the craziest things happen when im with my pltmates.i laughed so much just now.

sometimes i wonder why i care. seeing you itself is hurting me. i dun tell it to anyone, all they know is that im obsessed, that im just fucking around. maybe im not, maybe im just a drama queen acting the part but maybe i acted wrong. maybe im crying now. maybe i just miss you

'ring ring ' goes the phone. my heart skips afew beats just to stop half dead.you dont even care

2009-05-17T01:27:00.000-07:00

tried learning 'all or nothing' on piano by memorising the keys but failed miserably how does maryam do it?? why isit that some things come so easy to some people but others have to try extra hard and can never be good enough as them. no im not just talking about piano.its the least of wad im saying. thats it im gonna just let go and stop trying so hard. i shld stick to singing out of tune in the bathroom.yup humiliation seems to be my only calling.

2009-05-16T22:52:00.000-07:00

OMG BOYS OVER FLOWERSS ROCKSSS!!i never knew!! F4 is sooo cute!!!i cant really stand the girl tho so annoying ah her actions. but overall its awesom!!! i love the period after exams.no work load to worry about at all.ok i have a serious sugar craving now after watching a documentary on candies.

2009-05-15T07:49:00.000-07:00

just ate a whole lot of fried oyster and a whole lot of noodles to comfort myself. i never believed in 'comfort food' until now. i have to stop myself from thinking too much.why should i shed tears over this?its so stupid.i deserve better, much better. all i do is think about you, about the platoon about her and i end up getting hurt. fuck me and my security issues. i just want these feelings to go away. i dont want to hurt not anymore.

2009-05-15T05:32:00.000-07:00

csp was a suck-fest as usual but hanging out with esther,dee and maryam after tat cheered me up. haha we looked like idiots standing in the rain just enjoying getting wet.esther and i did count-by-the and dee was sliding in between us.

just dance in the rain

2009-05-14T05:00:00.000-07:00

CTs are over but it still feel like there's no freedom.after a few months gonna have to go into mugger mode again.but lets not think of that for now. lets think about American idol. the finale is nxt week!! Adam Lambert All the way.Kris kinda rocks too but not as much as adam. so what if he's gay?? we're in the 21st century for crying out loud. open your mind to new possibilities and open your soul to different perspectives. besides he's HAWT!

2009-05-13T05:45:00.000-07:00

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
(Was it something I did?)
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

this song says so much, about us, about today and about what's next...Bravo'09

2009-05-13T04:35:00.000-07:00

13-5-2009 a day i'll never forget. i can never forget. not for a long long long time to come. almost everyone was crying today. i thought i wouldnt, that i was stronger but when i saw her eyes from a distance when she was huggig someone else, i couldnt help myself.i couldnt take it. im sooooo stupid i should have said smth back said something in return just to let her know, to let them know just how much they mean to me. i had it all figured out in my brain but when it was my turn i choked, choked on what to say, choked on my tears and choked on their words. those words still ring in my ear like that annoying church bell that always goes off at 12.but i just have to let you know, thanks, i never knew until now.

i love you too, ALL of you

2009-05-12T06:07:00.000-07:00

i take it back.. i think peter and sam is sweeter still...

2009-05-12T05:44:00.000-07:00

Bloody english project.go die ah. then no ones much of a damn help. arghh!! why cant they give us a compo exam or compre.anythings better than doing a talkshow about 'evolution' u think wad we charles darwin isit????

omg tmr gt two tests. like one isnt enough to give me head pain.

i love fighting spidersssss tony and annie's so sweet

2009-05-10T04:17:00.000-07:00

holy crap!! im scared of time now and the speed it travels at.two terms almost gone.fuck it. days gone by seem like a dream and the days to come will last as long as that.it had seem so far.damn where were my senses?? i cant keep up, no, i want this to last a little longer, for things to stay the same a little bit more.

just a little

hold on to people they're slipping away

2009-05-10T03:45:00.000-07:00

studied twice today, three hours each. proud of myself.there's no sense on privacy in my house whatsoever.its forever noisy and in a state of controlled chaos.thank god for my mum who always "strike a balance"(note the air quotes) between my annoying sis and my irritating dad. So thank you mummy for making life bearable for me at home.HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY. i love you. i'll try to be good. i said 'try' no promises yet

2009-05-07T06:26:00.000-07:00

haha two posts in one night.two contradicting posts.i feel so high all of a sudden thinking, reflecting,and reading ppl's posts .cant wait for the CTs to end then i can stay back in school and waste time.for once i want to slack.but for now i'm telling myself 'jia you' cannot give up so damn easily.just two more subjects. come on aim for straight A-1,.aim high, aim for the sky for if you fall at least you'll land on the clouds.... or at least thats what they say. damn philosophers think they know everything

2009-05-07T06:13:00.000-07:00

Fuck this computer lah. fuck it fuck it fuck it. like wtf is wrong with technology and me??im jinxed jinxed and i didnt even have to break my mirror or walk under a ladder. i was born jinxed dun need phisical factors or wadeva shit. damn this mother f-ing god forbidden piece of metal scrap.Bloody shit

2009-05-06T07:39:00.000-07:00

today was unforgettable. tmr got class phototaking god i cant wait to get out of there.screw maths and whoever invented it

im not sure wad but something was missing today

2009-05-05T06:31:00.000-07:00

fighting spiders ia the best Singaporean Drama ever.. just wanted to let you know

2009-05-01T06:55:00.000-07:00

i made my first batch of successful brownies today. 'cheers' for me.

billy joel armstrong is hawt. so is gerade way, jared leto and adam lambert. wad do they have in common? all of them have blach hair, smoky eyes and wear eyeliner. god im so tired of typical pretty boys i used to like. im so fickle minded. im gonna buy Green Day's new album when i get my allowance this month!!!

2009-04-30T23:47:00.000-07:00

talking with esther yesterday helped me realised so many things i didnt know about the plt, so many ppl i misunderstood. i think i have been a horrible pltmate. from now on i'm gonna try to be a better pltmate, a better friend. maybe then only then i can become a better cadet.

And we'll never get back
what we gave away
when we still have that fire in our eye

2009-04-29T07:24:00.000-07:00

if it makes it any easier to bear to just let go, if there was anything at all to make me forget, i wont do it. i dun like feeling this way, feeling the loss of people i have come to care so much about, the people whom made me what i am today. i dun want to feel it but im glad its there cuz it makes me want to go on and leave a legacy for those to come like they have done for us. if there's anything i know, its that no matter how much harder it gets and they're not there i have my platoonmates to share those memories with

if i could say wad i want to say
i'd say i want to blow you...away...
be wit you everyday

2009-04-29T06:30:00.000-07:00

u just, just had to ruin a perfectly fine day. with one word. 'NO' ok 1st of all it was a perfect day thank you very much for asking. we had one period of lessons today and that was enough to lift my spirits but afterwards it was just omg. smiles all the way. so thx.thx for ruining it for me.im frigging 14 going on 15. i need to grow up so let me.i cant keep on living this way and u cant be with me all the time.just take a chance with me for once just one time

its weird but wonderful how other people's words even tho not directed at you individually make you so happy it makes you forget about other stuff.haha 'all smiles'

2009-04-28T06:39:00.000-07:00

you know sometimes life's like that. there will be people who piss you off but there are people who will always stand by you so dun be sad cuz in the end its the opinion of those you care about and who care about you really matter. so be strong k dear? you know who you are

2009-04-28T02:11:00.000-07:00

nice weather today.i love rainy days. it has a feel of subtle sadness yet there's a hint of gentleness in the cool breeze that blows after a storm. so i sat at the plt table today,revising after q and a session with the HPC nominees. i was sitting all alone, just enjoying the breeze, occasionally smiling at every other person that passes by and looking out at the PIE.its ironic really how two unseemingly different worlds are separated by a fence.the cars out side seemed to be in a rush to do what they have to and here i am in the school lazing around not even doing my work properly, too busy thinking and remembering. the view from here may not be a 1st class five star hotel view but it was familiar sight, a sight i knew so well, appreciated so little and have grown to love so much.especially on days like this when you're all alone and you're platoon mates have all gone home, the table is the only place i'll ever find the comforting presence of my platoon. and i dont ever want to change it. not ever because we've had so much memories and fun there it feels like when we're not in our classes we can expect someone to be there. sitting there i feel part of Bravo'09. i will treasure this because god knows how long we'll still be here. but right now im not afraid to be lonely anymore.ok maybe im getting too emotional and looking wayyy stupid cuz Beaunice the PSl with whom i had made no sort of communication whatsoever until now was actually laughing at my expression when i was deep in thought.HAHA

you sitting there at the other end opposite me made me think maybe, just, just maybe you might be feeling the same way that i do now about it. maybe about different people but i think it might just be the same feeling. just.

im trying to remember
why i was afraid
to be myself and let the
covers fall away

2009-04-27T06:12:00.000-07:00

im extremely paranoid right now. like i dun know how to put it in words cuz my head's a frigginh mess rite now.got literature and history stuck somewhere there and a lil bit of maths and sci at the corner but the main that's taking almost the whole place in my brain now is school..DUH! didnt see that coming did ya? such a horrible start to the week. but you know wad they say...

which is wad im doing rite now. pasting that smile permantely on my face and going around like i have not a care in the world. but wait turn around and take a look at things more carefully they're not all that they seem to be.people are not all that they seem to be. places are not all that they seem to be. but wad can i do? just suck it. suck it real good lick it up and spit it out.tats my motto

i wake up in the morning

put on my face

the one's that's gonna get me

thro another day

doesnt really matter

how i feel inside

this life is like a game sometimes

2009-04-26T01:57:00.000-07:00

shit i need to study.nxt nxt week's CTs. panic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! must do well or else no more NDP!!!!speaking of which it hasnt even started....

ok shut up

2009-04-23T06:40:00.000-07:00

today was crap. waste of my time,day and life. i dont even want to type anymore..

just wanted to say im glad that we even went this far.im just glad we had a chance of being under your care.im just happy we had you.thx for everything you've done.thx for the memories.

2009-04-20T04:19:00.000-07:00

school wasnt all that bad today. survived maths by actually paying attention..haha not bad. feel refreshed after maths lesson i forgotten how nice it feels to pay attention and understand a lesson rather than mugging and getting pissed off at the teacher at home.

CSP was uh confusing. i fell asleep halfway thro the lesson. got two annoying ppl writing names on the back of their hands with black eyeliner beside me during lesson. guess who? one of them is a cute-ass and the other is retarded loves playing the yo-yo.HAHA

2009-04-18T07:17:00.000-07:00

i hate cedar and its whole stupid system. i dont see the point of going for useless talks that seem to chronicle around the same damn thing.i dont see why we shld have maths homework every single day. i dont understand why we have to do projects instead of normal exams.thats wad IP is for. i'd rather study my brains out than waste my time writng reflestions anyway. it so messed up but they dont even know it.screw this school

i hate my class and its people.ok maybe not all of them but some anyway.i dont even think they care. i cant wait to get out of that class. im tired of seeing you and not knowing whether to smile or just run away. i want to talk to you sort things out but i cant seem to find the place or time where there isnit a group of eyes watching.i know i started this but now im regretting it and right now i justi dont want to lose our friendship.

i dont know wads holding me back anymore. the more i think about it the more it seems like its not worth it. is there even a place for me there? maryam asked me yesterday 'why so moody?' i said i didnt want to go back home. well i lied. i didnt want to come back to school and see the same old faces, the same old places. faces that hardly care, places with lack of people who hardly do. even the people whom i care most about and whom i trust to care about me seem far away and and unable to hear me.

i just want someone to hold me now and hold me tight, whisper into my ear 'its gonna be ok'

2009-04-15T06:59:00.000-07:00

i tend to get tired easily these few days.today was one of those days where i feel like all i wanted to do when i got home was throw down my bag and jump onto my bed. but it i have to admit i feel sastisfied today

i skipped my recess wearning the stupid outfit and when i went down no one was there.junie was like' there's no one there khin!' 'OMG hurry up go up junie carry my tail run!' HAHAHA god why do these things happen to me?? teachers were like giving me tat 'why does she have a tail behind her ass?' look

i got separated from my beloved table partner Diviya today. no more "scandal scandal" ah.haha hey at least we have those toilet breaks to count on. i dun know how i'd survive maths lessons without you. I love you diviya!

2009-04-14T06:38:00.000-07:00

skipped ROBO again and stayed back in sch wit my plt mates for fun and just now my robo senior just called and asked me to quit. hardly surprising since i hadnt attend it since the beginning of year. congrats you just screwed another aspect of your life jasmine...wad nxt?

even elephants are going gay now (go read the news). Its kinda cool ya know homosexual zoo animals.i still dun really know wad i m tho

2009-04-12T01:42:00.000-07:00

changing skins are so tiring and sometimes it coincides wit ppl u dont know.thx for the heads up dee.and btw i tie my hair cuz is long NOT for other reasons get it? so dun think im copying someone gt better things to do than worry about who i look like. just so you're clear

i need to go on a diet

2009-04-11T03:10:00.000-07:00

again its not the same anymore. god why???? i cant find the missing pieces i tot it was strong enough to last forever or at least until this year. i dun know wad to think or feel anymore i guess this is it. i dun even care about tomorrow anymore

i cant face them no not after wad happened. i dun want to either

2009-04-10T01:35:00.000-07:00

watched slumdog millionaire on my com just now.halfway thro i was falling asleep.now im munching on my banana fritters and resorted to blogging

reflecting on that day i just wanted to say hey im sorry. we're all sorry. i dun speak for all of them but here it is anyway. tats all i can say rite now ya im sorry im not good enough

2009-04-09T07:16:00.000-07:00

wad can i say everybody's falling sick its like the 'IN' thing to do n ow. i feel like falling sick too. i want to have fever, runny nose, breathing difficulties and choke and gag to drive my thots away.fly fly away

ate a pile of Fruit Plus in class courtesy of Weeming and group. im the best PC ever. and thats when i realise i hate being one.i hate constantly having to tuck in my shirt, to pull up my socks and to pin up my hair.i dun have problems following the rules but i dun want people to have the impression that PCs are supposed to be perfect ALL the time.'what kind of PC are you?' shut up okk? you're not the boss of me. IM the boss of me! i hate it when people tell me wad to do get it? I HATE IT

2009-04-07T06:58:00.000-07:00

i screwed CSP oral test.screwed it big time.all i heard was blahblahblahblahblah and some more blahblahblah.like look at me lady do i look like i understand a single word of the crap you're saying?you got me at whats your name but lost me when you went further.put a sock in it lah cann??i waited for 3 HOURS ok? 3 BLOODY HOURS to do wad? flunk the test?i mean seriously you want me to take the test at least submit my name to MOE first LAH!!i had to miss the volley ball match and wait and wait just because my name wasnt on the list?wtf

thank god for farhana who made the 1st half of my wait bearable wit ur paris hilton wannabe acts but u ain't got nothing on me..haha
'i think i dropped it by this mann hole..OW ITS FRIGGING HOT' HAHAH

2009-04-05T06:05:00.000-07:00

went swimming and spent a third of my allowance in just one day. YAY finally got 'twilight' in VCD.yes im a fan i have all the books and gonna buy all the VCDs if they make New moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. i luv it luv it luv it!! i think twilight saga is the only series of books worth buying.

'Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain.'-Bella Swan

2009-04-03T07:01:00.000-07:00

today was 2.4. alamak i was 1 sec away from an A cannn??i told myself i had to endure but it wasnt the same when you didnt have the platoon there telling you to endure.jogging PT was much better and i managed to go on without stopping.and thats when i realised i loved yall so much so dun freak out if i had suddenly told you i loved you today.

today was so much fun.it is one of those moments that really make you look back and think 'hey life's not so bad afterall' i think i just might make it thro. playing netball with diviya, sara and tammy,taking pictures of our sweaty backs and going in and out of the toilet several times dodging when the NP people came running in and out of it was unexpectedly fun.

just finished 'Jane Eyre' and 'Wuthering heights'. Victorian classics are nice in a romantic but haunting kind of way. im gonna read the unabridged versions of the two books again and 'Pride and Prejudice' and 'Emma' too..

2009-04-02T06:41:00.000-07:00

my whole body is aching.every muscle in my body feels strained.tats wat you get after 23 rounds around the school.tmr gt 2.4 and jogging pt some more...the only reason i endured was i didnt want to disappoint you. i really thought it was the last time.

Never thought it’d be so hard to let you go,
Tell me how I’m gonna make it
You’re the one I can’t forget
It’s like I’m running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends
When I try to face it when I wake up I hate the way reality sets in
God I wish you could hold me
Through the seven days of lonely

ADAM LAMBERT IS SMOKING HOT HOT HOT!!!!!!!!

2009-03-28T04:06:00.000-07:00

im updating cuz of smone.tat same person showed me two poems today.smhow it made my day.THANKs.u noe ah my life's a bore wit a capital 'B'. sm things in my life too unapporiate for a public blog.an rmbr to switch off ur lights at 8.30 today for earth hour.do ur part for our home.you can say i belong in this race that race but in the end we all belong to the HUMAN RACE.sm wise guru told me tat but i forgot who ah.

GOOD JOB FSD PPL!!!!YOU DID CEDAR PROUD!!tho i felt i didnt do my part well...

count down: just 4 more weeks....time is just too fast

2009-03-24T18:04:00.000-07:00

stupid ah!stayed up till 12 doing stupid trigo bull-crap still cnnt finish!wtf! this stress is not helping my system especially when im PMS-ing! im just pissed at evry1 i c. my life have been going around crap tat im not even part of!! i havent been behind homework in like 5 yrs since i migrated here and sekali u turned my world upside down!my shitty results have proven tat i gotta BUCK UP and concentrate on whats actually important in life!!!in the end it all comes down to ME so im gonna lay off the girl-on-girl drama for now and concentrate on my studies.

2009-03-22T00:22:00.000-07:00

FINALLY i've done all my homework.'claps' for me.march hols didnt even feel like hols,maybe cuz my mind was only focused on one thing i didnt see how fast time was moving.still i cant wait to get back in the action of sch life.it keeps my mind working and stop my thoughts from running wild like it is now but they're always orbiting around the same subject..suddenly i feel like i have to say this out loud.i dun care if you found out. i WANT you to find out.u might not even care but i want to be more than just a passing memory.no i want to be something more tangible cause even the most lasting of memories fade away....
OMG A MILLION THX TO A'TIKAH!!!I LOVE YOU!!!!

2009-03-19T02:53:00.000-07:00

UNIT CAMP's over!!!aaaawwwwww!!!like it was the most fun i've had in this whole yr since i had to skip LJ and stay in sch learning shitty alphabeto stuff.BTW its ALPHABETO not ALPHABETA LOSER!!!anw congrats to esther!!!!!you deserved it.. YAY got to see the specs for like a mili-second during co-nite after humiliating myself into the next century!! still it was nice to see them again. missed them so much tho I LOVE THIS YEAR SPECSSS LIKE HELL!!!!! it was incredible and definitely unforgettable!! chickadie club all the way yo!!!

2009-03-14T04:09:00.001-07:00

i made a new friend today.and i have a feeling we're gonna be more than friends one day.I love you humaira!!its weird i never thought we'd be this close as we are now!! stay cute and cool ya!and yes i'll be there for you and i know you're gonna be there for me!!!!eh haha sry the image upside down.hahaha.

2009-03-07T19:14:00.000-08:00

yesterday co nite was fun.did two dry runs of the script.it was raining like duno wad and humaira and i were so freaked by the thunder.went to mac's and in the rain.aawwwwwww my darlin raqibah came back for me in the rain.we walked under the umbrella in therain.haha tat reminded me of 'char char' and the umbrella incident.man if only she was there.then we had a creative discussion of our fav topic of the year at mac's.haha somehow evrytime after co nite meeting,we would wind up talking about it.hmmm Dee and i have been corrupting the plt's innocent minds.hahahaha the kind of ppl i have for friends...........wouldn't change them for anything in the world